Biyernes, Disyembre 19, 2008

Hodgepodge of being tired, happiness, and bisexuality

Gah! I'm so backed up on these thoughts, but here goes.

17 December 2008This was a tiring tiring day. I had to spearhead a Christmas party's program almost single-handedly... and I'm pretty sure it was a flop. Even I'd have been disappointed with what turned out. However, despite being exhausted with whatever and what-not, I still went to the UP Centennial Lantern Parade. I went to Melchor Hall and caught a glimpse of a few of the revolutionaries. Then came Babaylan, the org of LGBT (well not so much the L but the GBTs). I was slightly disturbed that I was — erm — excited by one of the parade "girls". (S)He really looked pretty and I would never have thought him/her to be male had it not been for him/her being in the Babaylan contingent.  Thank goodness for the fugly (I will not sugar coat the words) folk who followed. They brought me back to the world. I realized you don't have to be pretty to be pretty gay.

My plan was to just drop by and check out some lanterns, but I saw the UP Pep and then tried to follow them to take a video of a routine. (Vinnie effectively ignored me.) I saw them do two, but I wasn't at a good vantage point. Finally at Palma Hall, I got a semi-decent view, but it was that part of the twilight when it gets dark very quickly and the difference between acceptable video illumination vanishes fast. The video I got was only visible thanks to a gazillion flash bulbs going off.

After, I messaged a friend if she's still going to the parade, I joined the Education contingent to be with her. Now, I don't know how to go about this: she said she was cold, so I offered my jacket saying I had two that time anyway. How does one offer a jacket effectively without giving it away? :D I guess I'm down one jacket. I was happy to join her though IN the parade all the way to Simbang Gabi at the Church of the Gesu. There she met with her friends and I went home.

18 December 2008I somehow now have a license to write about my memories of Joey Carlos when I read his mom's email asking for snippets of Joey's life and passing to help reconstruct the good life he lived. (This opposite the request from a friend of another student who passed away NOT to recall memories of a bitter passing.)

19 December 2008First off, I was supposed to work on a problem set at Starbs, but I forgot to bring my notebook's power cord so I ended up just finding my way to Blueskies and going on the Internet there — which led to some students inviting me to play DotA (but I didn't get to play with them since they got computers late). I played my best Lord of Avernus game ever since they reworked Abaddon.

Some things just don't change, do they? ...and some even get worse. Anyway, I never went in the classroom of my former moderating class during their Christmas salu-salo, but not by choice. They're a wonderful group and it was even refreshing that some people who were otherwise hostile were warm. It's funny that other groups would even pull me in to their rooms — even classes I did not teach. Again, they're a wonderful bunch and I'd still be for them each time.

Ended the night with playing again upon the invitation of some friends/former students. They weren't able to make it though, it being late. Played with some folk using Silencer, shared my hero so can they use Global Silence, and then they dropped my items. Oh well, screw.

20 December 2008I'll be off to a party with the kada later, but here's something I found on a friend's Facebook profile just this morning. I don't know how someone can claim to be the very first Pinoy Bisexual, but I guess it's a matter of saying it first despite previous occurences. It's like Vasco Núñez de Balboa discovering the Pacific Ocean despite indigents on both ends of the body of water surely being able to notice it before. Anyway, here it is:

Miyerkules, Disyembre 3, 2008

Sabado, Nobyembre 29, 2008

HDD Backup - Images for Tekken activity




The Tribute to OBoys




American Idol 7 Top 3 - Heaven




American Idol Season 7 Top 4 - Ring of Fire




American Idol Season 7 Top 5 - Catch the Wind




American Idol Season 7 Top 6 - Tainted Love




American Idol Season 7 Top 7 - I Want to Break Free




American Idol Season 7 Top 8 - I Just Want to Celebrate




American Idol Season 7 Top 9 - It's Tricky




American Idol Season 7 Top 10 - I Want You to Want Me




American Idol Season 7 Top 11 - Should I Stay Or Should I Go




Tribute to OBoys who went ahead...




...to other countries. At least these are the ones who were honored during the N2008 Farewell Affair. Wait for the video to be posted in a few-ish hours.

American Idol Season 7 Top 12 - The Distance




Sabado, Nobyembre 22, 2008

MK vs DC Intro Story video




It took me 155 minutes to upload this one 110MB video... Enjoy!

Biyernes, Nobyembre 21, 2008

I sang with Michael Johns onstage!

I wasn't for Michael Johns the rocker during Season 7 of American Idol.  I had been for David Cook and Syesha Mercado and was glad that Cook broke my jinx of rooting for the wrong person since Season 3.  (I was for Diana DeGarmo, cheered for Bo Bice, wanted Katharine McPhee to win, and prayed Blake Lewis would come up on top.)  However, I will have to admit that Johns was increasingly good throughout the season.  The Filipino bet Ramielle Malubay had no chance with great talent abounding — given the fact that the others have already had "professional" experience.

Anywho, flash forward to Thursday, 20 November 2008.  I had left the university a little after lunch to go to rehearsals at Zobel.  I had several stops before I eventually got to La Salle.  I passed by Ayala Avenue first, then Bicutan, then eventually Alabang.  It was nearly 4.00p when I got to AlabangTown Center.  At the Activity Center were seats arranged as if there were a show.  I went down and realized a very sparse group of people gathered near a stage, camera phones snapping away.

So what happened?  There was Michael Johns rehearsing on the stage wearing a simple white shirt.  As I got off the escalator just beside the stage, he said "Hi!".  I immediately recalled the song he performed with Carly Smithson at the finalé of the season.  I was audibly singing it.  "She wrote me a letter.  Said she couldn't live without me no mo'.  Listen, baby, can't you see I got to get back to my baby once more... Anyway!"

So there: I sang... with Michael Johns onstage.

Martes, Nobyembre 18, 2008

Rihanna and Chris Brown (sorry konti lang ang pics)





















































































Have I told you I didn't watch the concert?

Linggo, Nobyembre 16, 2008

On self, psych, and computing

There's one problem with all psychological knowledge — nobody can apply it to themselves. People can be incredibly astute about the shortcomings of their friends, spouses, children. But they have no insight into themselves at all. The same people who are coldly cleary-eyed about the world around them have nothing but fantasies about themselves.  Psychological knowledge doesn't work if you look in a mirror. This bizarre fact is, as far as I know, unexplained.

Personally, I always thought there was a clue from computer programming, in a procedure called recursion. Recursion means making the program loop back on itself, to use its own information to do things over and over until it gets a result. You use recursion for certain data-sorting algorithms and things like that. But it's got to be done carefully, or you risk having the machine fall into what is called an infinite regress. It's the programming equivalent of those funhouse mirrors that reflect mirrors, and mirrors, ever smaller and smaller, stretching away to infinity. The program keeps going, repeating and repeating, but nothing happens. The machine hangs.

I always figured something similar must happen when people turn their psychological insight-apparatus on themselves. The brain hangs. The thought process goes and goes, but it doesn't get anywhere. It must be something like that, because we know people can think about themselves indefinitely. Some people think of little else. Yet people never seem to change as a result of their intensive introspection. They never understand themselves better. It's very rare to find genuine self-knowledge.

It's almost as if you need someone else to tell you who you are, or to hold up the mirror for you. Which, if you think about it, is very weird.

Or maybe it's not.

There's an old question in artificial intelligence about whether a program can ever be aware of itself. Most programmers will say it was impossible. People have tried to do it, and failed.

But there's a more fundamental version of the question, a philosophical question about whether any machine can understand its own workings. Some people say that's impossible, too. The machine can't know itself for the same reason you can't bite your own teeth. And it certainly seems to be impossible: the human brain is the most complicated structure in the known universe, but brains still know very little about themselves.

I am so loving and dreading getting back to thinking about theories in computing! Loving since I get to exercise rusty brain cells and recall theories, theorems, and lemmas that I've learned to use and facilitate efficient programs before. Dreading since I know that it's been a very long while since I actually used the knowledge and that I may have already forgotten how most stuff work.

Being a student again has its perks, pluses, and pitfalls.

Martes, Nobyembre 4, 2008

Ito daw ang uso e...

Tentative, that is. Wala pa akong MS load sa lagay na 'yan. I won't be able to visit AHS YFC with that schedule, pero pwedeng pwede ako bumisita sa Zobel YFC.

Sabado, Nobyembre 1, 2008

(Long lost files) AHS Science and Computer teachers Dive and Trek trip




(Long lost files) Inaanyayahan ang klase ng 4N na tumayo at umakyat sa entablado...




(Long lost files) N2008 approaches the stage




I just HAVE TO share this about Starbucks...

Starbucks Lovers out there (coming to mind are Chan, Vince, Bryant, Ron, ...), they are raising their prices for drinks by PhP 5 for each cup on the fourth of November. Pretty paltry for what I take from them anyway (charging my laptop, charging my phone, quality napkins, A/C, Internet, etc). The good news is...
As a prelude to the Christmas season, we're treating you an upsize on all Starbucks Coffee, Tea, Espresso, and Frappuccino Blended Beverages from 01 to 03 November 2008.
Take advantage of this in the next two days before they pump up the cups!

Lunes, Oktubre 27, 2008

Wikipedia Meme

The previous two entries in the blog were removed by request.  In their stead, I place this meme from Guissmo.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
Click once to get your starting article.
Click again to get your ending article.

Click around the starting article to reach the ending article.
You may read either.
Try to use up the least clicks.


Robert Murphy Mayo to Azulewicz coat of arms

  1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Murphy_Mayo
    Who the heck? I just click on something that may possibly give me something Polish.
  2. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:1836_births
    I don't find Polish or Poland anywhere. I pick a name that sounds European.
  3. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dmitri_Girs
    Okay, he's Russian...
  4. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Russia
    Russia borders Poland! Oh, yeah!
  5. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poland
    There's a mention of the Polish-Lithuanian Commonwealth on the ending page
  6. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Polish-Lithuanian_Commonwealth
    However, no direct links... I kinda cheat by checking which pages links to the ending page
  7. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Szlachta
  8. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Polish_heraldry
  9. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Polish_Coats_of_Arms
  10. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Azulewicz_coat_of_arms

Let's try anew...


HMCS Kenogami (K125) to Sorgho-Yargo

  1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/HMCS_Kenogami_(K125)
    Wow... my starting point is a ship. You'd expect it to have traveled to Africa? No.
  2. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/July_9
    Anything related to Africa? Some related to African-Americans... There you go!
  3. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/African_Union
    Fortunately, Burkina Faso is a member of the African Union.
  4. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Burkina_Faso
    No direct listing of regions or departments here so...
  5. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Departments_of_Burkina_Faso
    My end page is in the Kongoussi Department
  6. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kongoussi_Department
    There we go!
  7. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sorgho-Yargo

Sabado, Oktubre 25, 2008

(Long lost files) ASC and A2009 Book Launch at Balducci at Serendra




No use hiding it, but I was part of the Academic Standards Committee which kept me busy until the very last day that I was employed at Ateneo. In the room that we used, there was this mini-poster that says "TIME will pass, but will YOU?" It was funny that we were deliberating lots of cases and deciding whether they will be promoted to the next year level or will take Summer Remedial or just leave the school.

(Long lost files) Unemployment cleaning and Easter Egg Hunt




I was unemployed, so I had lots of free time to clean up and organize my rooms and the bathroom. Particularly proud of the once messy bathroom counter that was now — rather, then — organized.

Next, it's the Santiagos's Easter Egg Hunt sans Reuben.